Just Another Day

I went for my second physiotherapy follow-up. This time instead of a student physiotherapist, not that I didn't trust her as she was very dedicated in patient care, a qualified physiotherapist attended to me.

Yes, I have mild lordosis. Also I might develop scoliosis if I do not take the initiative to correct my posture and exercise regularly to strengthen my abdominal and back muscles. Apparently, my back muscles are constantly in spasm on the right side. :( It's pulling my spine to the right and curving my lumbar area to the front. T_T T_T T_T I dunno, is this for real?? Someone please tell me that scoliosis is really not caused by poor posture or lack of exercise...




I know I have said this countlessly: I'll exercise regularly to regain my abs. And it's always starting tomorrow. Hmmph

Now there is no excuse for me. And I'm driven this time to reduce my weight from 57kg to 52kg by exercising regularly and not cutting down my diet (hehe) and of course, I hope to regain my abs as well. Who has ever seen a healthy fit person having distorted spinal problem anyway.

You can call me fat. You can call me ugly. But if you tell me I might have health problems, I will be so determined to rectify the problem.

Yah, I'm paranoid when it comes to health and death.

This Saturday to see dentist. This Sunday to go for royal relaxation massage. The sedentary lifestyle for the past 8 months have finally taken its toll on me. I blame the Drug Information Service and Enforcement rotations in particular. Anyone agree that government hospital chairs are very very uncomfortable?

One after another

So, other than the back pain, I have a two other problems now.

1. Both my lower wisdom teeth are growing. Sore jaws.

2. I got the upper right wisdom tooth removed about a month ago at a government dental clinic opposite my hospital. I wasn't advised on proper steps to take care of my hollow socket after tooth extraction such as, rinse with saltwater after 24 hours and come-see-me-if-it-got-swollen-because-it-might-be-infected. He only told me not to eat seafood and avoid touching the area to let it clot. My bad for eating char kuey teow with siham later that night. I developed gum infection the next day and thereafter for about 3 weeks when it decided to go away and stop bothering me.

I went back to him in week 2 and I think he did socket irrigation and it was damn painful. He asked me to rinse with chlorhexidine mouthwash. I went to see a second government dentist in week 3 and she did the same thing but this time with anaesthetic so it wasn't painful but a scary experience because she brought in a whole team of dentists to review my condition. She told me to use chlorhexidine mouthwash also. I went to a private dentist at the end of week 3 and she made me feel very very comforted. She explained that chlorhexidine mouthwash is only good for post-tooth extraction but for a healed socket, saltwater would be sufficient. And I was glad because chlorhexidine mouthwash sucks. It's very bitter. Just when I thought it was healing properly, I felt a bone fragment sticking out of my healed socket.

Now it's not really causing me pain or discomfort but sometimes when I move my jaw or cheek, I do feel that protruding sharp fragment. I went to see a third government dentist and she told me very briefly : "It's just your bone being exposed after tooth extraction (presses against my bone fragment and I said, 'ouch!' to prove that it's not bone fragment but my own bone) and it will shrink when your socket is closed up completely."

???

I left the dental clinic with lots of questions in my head and I tell myself that's the last time I would go to a government dental clinic. Nobody gives a damn there.

So I googled about bone fragments after tooth extraction. Now I have no mood to do whatsoever research. I just read randomly and assessed the credibility of information with my female sixth sense.

Probably, I have dry socket which is associated with delayed healing and while healing socket becomes folded in a way that exposes bone.

Or I just have exposed bone after tooth extraction which happens to minority of patients.

Either explanation, it ends up with nothing that can be done and let it shrink by itself. Yes, bones do get reabsorbed. I'm guessing 1-6 months?

Anyway, I'm going to see the same private dentist that I trust again and this time I hope that my upper left wisdom tooth and both my lower wisdom teeth can be removed. I'm so tired of all this wisdom tooth shit.

Miss Gan

I miss the energy in me. I miss the hype I get from little things. I miss just letting go of the small stuffs. I miss the climb of happiness. I miss having tiny desires. I miss cooking up smiles and satisfaction. I miss the freedom of not knowing. I miss scooping joy from wobbly normal days. I miss closing my eyes and catch myself smiling from silly fantasies. I miss thinking about magic and miracles. I miss moving the gear and drive at different levels. I miss underground song-searching. I miss digging lyrics. I miss humming my weight off the world. I miss my empty mind. Tell me you miss me, just me. The little miss smarty pants.